I didn't, but it happened. It doesn't do anyone any good to pretend it didn't. Least of all me.
( his intentions didn't protect anyone, in the end. his mistakes had gotten people hurt, and even if the rest of Audentes was willing to try and convince him that his good intentions made it okay, Peter wasn't capable of agreeing with it. he didn't test himself, he didn't see the infection before it was too late, he didn't allow anyone close enough to help him when he needed it most.
this was his fault, and he was well aware of it. even if nobody else was willing to.
the mention that in her own world, people weren't so lucky to survive their bouts into frenzy, cows him enough that his dark eyes land on the floor again. he can't possibly tell her that he would have rather he died than be allowed to hurt all the people he had, not to someone who was on the other side of it. he's forced into miserable silence instead. )
You're wrong, that I don't have to apologize. I have to do something. ( if only the apologies felt like they actually helped. )
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( his intentions didn't protect anyone, in the end. his mistakes had gotten people hurt, and even if the rest of Audentes was willing to try and convince him that his good intentions made it okay, Peter wasn't capable of agreeing with it. he didn't test himself, he didn't see the infection before it was too late, he didn't allow anyone close enough to help him when he needed it most.
this was his fault, and he was well aware of it. even if nobody else was willing to.
the mention that in her own world, people weren't so lucky to survive their bouts into frenzy, cows him enough that his dark eyes land on the floor again. he can't possibly tell her that he would have rather he died than be allowed to hurt all the people he had, not to someone who was on the other side of it. he's forced into miserable silence instead. )
You're wrong, that I don't have to apologize. I have to do something. ( if only the apologies felt like they actually helped. )