I am sorry. What's on my mind is something I'm uncomfortable voicing out loud. It terrifies me to think of that time....you saved me. [From Rachel no less. Julius looks down with his gaze wavering.]
I cannot help myself and ponder on it further. The events from that day continuously replay in my head. I ask myself if it's truly over.
[ Indeed she is. He's the most important person to her after all... She's not as oblivious of her own feelings as he is, but she's also courteous enough not to impose. Just helping him is enough. It matters not if he reciprocates. ]
[ Ah, so she has to lie here while he sleeps... it's not so bad, once she thinks about it. He's warm and everything, though she's sure they might both regret it tomorrow.
For now she draws the covers over him and lets him sleep. ]
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I'm okay.
[ And then, because she has to make this point: ]
I'm here to help you, Julius. If there's anything on your mind, I'll listen. You're not alone anymore.
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I'm always thinking of many things. [Not always good things, but it's complicated.]
Where do I begin with such a broad topic?
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Whichever you feel most comfortable with... or the most recent, maybe?
[ She understands how hard it is to speak about things. Maybe today just isn't a good day. ]
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I cannot help myself and ponder on it further. The events from that day continuously replay in my head. I ask myself if it's truly over.
Do you think it is?
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It is. She's gone now. She won't come back to hurt you anymore.
[ Has he been tormented by this for over a year? ]
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[He's trembling in her hand. Julius is always afraid of Rachel's shadow. She's not so easily eliminated. ]
She haunts me in my dreams. It becomes harder to think she won't hurt me and our friends.
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Does it help if I sleep next to you?
[ They've been unconsciously holding hands but she's never really given much thought to that. ]
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Does that make me weak as an individual?
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[ It feels like something embarrassing but she's fine if it helps him. ]
It doesn't. You're a very strong person, Julius.
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I feel reassured with you here. Don't go somewhere else.
[He'll be lonely...it's selfish of him to ask her that but she's content helping him for a bit.]
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[ Indeed she is. He's the most important person to her after all... She's not as oblivious of her own feelings as he is, but she's also courteous enough not to impose. Just helping him is enough. It matters not if he reciprocates. ]
You're not alone anymore... please remember that.
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No matter what happens we'll always be together. She cannot change that whether she is dead or alive.
[He goes closer to Reika and hugs her instinctively.]
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I'll take care of you.
[ That's the point she wants to make and it feels like she has to say it out loud. ]
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Julius keeps silent for a while, sorting his thoughts.]
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A good one. ]
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She tries to lay him down on the bed without waking him up. Will he let go of her? ]
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Julius isn't letting go.]
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For now she draws the covers over him and lets him sleep. ]