Seeing him cry hurts the most of all. He's been holding this back, hasn't he? For such a long time. To have one of his closest friends here find out is probably more than he can bear. If Riza has a bad opinion of him now... he might never recover.
Which means she must take the initiative. ]
I'm sorry...
[ For what, she doesn't know. But it seems like a better thing to say than anything else she can think of right now. ]
[He just leans on her chest and cries. The truth is never easy to face.
At least he has Reika here for comfort. Without her he isn't sure how he'd be able to handle himself. It's easier to lean on her for support during his most troublesome times.
There's only a few things in this world that can make Julius cry. This would be it.]
[ It never is, indeed. That's why people run away from it - and for him, he tries to hide them. Ten whole years of trauma is not easily dispelled.
It's hard, at first, to restrain her own tears when he's crying, but she has to try. Both for his sake, and her own. They need allies here, not enemies... and her faith in Riza being able to understand still holds.
Reika says nothing, thumbing his tears away from his face instead of replying. ]
[Honestly, he just wants to be left alone. Reika's stubborn and won't leave him though.
He shakes his head and keeps crying until his eyes are swollen. There's still some blood on his lip from when he bit too hard. This is stressful for them to deal with. ]
[ They are... kind of in public, which is why she tries to shield him from view with her own body. He's a bit taller than her, which makes this difficult - but she'll manage, she thinks, as she strokes his hair in a bid to get him to calm down.
It's almost surreal how he's the one crying this time. Usually it's her trying to hide her own tears. Maybe he's broken too hard. ]
[ It's precisely because he'll forget that she always remembers. ]
Okay. Go wash your face? I'll get things ready.
[ Make tea, clean up... write in her journal, maybe. So many things. She's probably not going to get any details out of him regarding Riza, so she has to draft up things to say and things to send without knowing the full scope of what happens. Julius probably needs reassurance as well, and he can be very demanding at times.
Really, she's tired. But these are things she has to do, even if it's to her detriment.
[ seriously don't give her heart attacks like this??????
He's obviously not fine, but what can she say? She can only go back to try and continue making tea. Once it's set to boil, she'll sit herself next to him. ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 05:33 pm (UTC)[What else is there to say? It's stressing him out more than usual. ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 05:34 pm (UTC)I'll go with you.
[ No objections. ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 05:53 pm (UTC)[He gives up and lets her go. Julius grabs his coat and heads outside. She better follow him fast.]
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Date: 2017-03-04 05:55 pm (UTC)[ They both know that. She barely has time to get her own jacket before he leaves. She has to lock the door in his place. ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 06:01 pm (UTC)I told her. Lieutenant Hawkeye is aware of my past actions.
I'm a fool, Reika.
[Still not looking at her.]
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Date: 2017-03-04 06:02 pm (UTC).... well. ]
You're not.
[ She takes his hand quietly. Riza did say to be more open, so... ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 06:20 pm (UTC)Why does it have to be this way?
[He looks up at her finally, almost crying.]
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Date: 2017-03-04 06:25 pm (UTC)Seeing him cry hurts the most of all. He's been holding this back, hasn't he? For such a long time. To have one of his closest friends here find out is probably more than he can bear. If Riza has a bad opinion of him now... he might never recover.
Which means she must take the initiative. ]
I'm sorry...
[ For what, she doesn't know. But it seems like a better thing to say than anything else she can think of right now. ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 06:37 pm (UTC)At least he has Reika here for comfort. Without her he isn't sure how he'd be able to handle himself. It's easier to lean on her for support during his most troublesome times.
There's only a few things in this world that can make Julius cry. This would be it.]
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Date: 2017-03-04 06:41 pm (UTC)It's hard, at first, to restrain her own tears when he's crying, but she has to try. Both for his sake, and her own. They need allies here, not enemies... and her faith in Riza being able to understand still holds.
Reika says nothing, thumbing his tears away from his face instead of replying. ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:05 pm (UTC)He shakes his head and keeps crying until his eyes are swollen. There's still some blood on his lip from when he bit too hard. This is stressful for them to deal with. ]
i like how we're screaming while our characters are crying
Date: 2017-03-04 07:11 pm (UTC)It's almost surreal how he's the one crying this time. Usually it's her trying to hide her own tears. Maybe he's broken too hard. ]
smhhh rip
Date: 2017-03-04 07:15 pm (UTC)Thanks to Reika he's managing to calm down. ]
Shouldn't we go back home?
[At home they can just rest.]
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:16 pm (UTC)We should. I'll make you tea.
[ And she can keep a watch on him, while she thinks. With that she tugs on his hand and starts walking back in. ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:20 pm (UTC)[Oh, good thing Reika remembered to lock the door. He follows her into their home.]
After that we'll sleep. I need rest.
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:22 pm (UTC)Okay. Go wash your face? I'll get things ready.
[ Make tea, clean up... write in her journal, maybe. So many things. She's probably not going to get any details out of him regarding Riza, so she has to draft up things to say and things to send without knowing the full scope of what happens. Julius probably needs reassurance as well, and he can be very demanding at times.
Really, she's tired. But these are things she has to do, even if it's to her detriment.
No one has to know. No one... ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:29 pm (UTC)He lets out a loud scream as a form of stress relief. What if his scream is enough to worry Reika?]
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:30 pm (UTC)Julius???!?!
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:33 pm (UTC)[No he's not fine, don't believe his lies. Julius looks really worn out. He just lies down on the couch and tries to block out his own memories. ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:36 pm (UTC)He's obviously not fine, but what can she say? She can only go back to try and continue making tea. Once it's set to boil, she'll sit herself next to him. ]
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:39 pm (UTC)The tea was enough to knock him out. Julius doesn't have much energy left to spare.]
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Date: 2017-03-04 07:45 pm (UTC)She moves him so he can sleep on her lap while she gathers her notes and thinks of what she should say. It's going to be a long night... ]
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Date: 2017-03-05 12:37 am (UTC)Julius is quiet until he starts screaming in his sleep also. Sweat drops from his face showing all she needs to see.]
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Date: 2017-03-05 02:25 am (UTC)Dealing with this while not waking him up though... it's more difficult. She takes his hand and gives it a slight squeeze. Maybe this would work. ]
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Date: 2017-03-05 02:39 am (UTC)Reika...
[Still thinking about her in his dreams.]
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